👣根据今天看到的一个vblog 完成的2017年总结：(先写了英文后面翻的中文，不通顺的地方就凑合看吧🤦🏻‍♀️)今天是2018年的第一天，每年到这一天我都希望可以做一个回顾,记录一年到头的心境；但是我不希望这个回顾仅仅是篇报告流水账，我希望可以推动自己改变或者至少做到对自己诚实

So 2017 ends tomorrow,and every year I'd like to do a recap of a year on what happened and how I felt.But I didn't want this review to just be a report thing, I just want to push myself and give something new and honest.💜💜💜💜💜💜🦄🦄🦄💜💜💜💜💜💜去年一年是疯狂而有意义的；我从美国回到国内，回到我成长的地方，我刚刚开始自己的工作然后又失去了它，我建立了自己的朋友圈，我找到了一生所爱

Last year was crazy and meaningful, I went back from the States; I just began my career and then I lost it; I built my own friend circle; And I found my soulmate to be together for rest of my life.但是一如往常，我也感觉到很多不安

太多事情我还没有完成，而且我面对这些不安选择了逃避而不是面对他们

But as always, I felt this anxiety, that too many things that I haven't done. And I did not good enough when I feel anxious. I chose escape than facing them.💜💜💜💜💜💜Family 💜💜💜💜💜💜在这一年，家庭聚会变得频繁

我总是先考虑自己的家庭

当我开始渐渐长大，我发现了家庭对我的重要性

我找办法可以尽量多和家人团聚，就算是时间很短的节日我也会邀请父母过来看我

我学会了怎样感恩他们的付出，家庭间的纽带感远远强于过去再美国的那些年

Family reunion becomes frequently. I will start with my family first. As I am getting older I realized how important my connection with my family is. I made it a resolution to see my parents as often as I could, even if it just a little break from work. I learned to appreciate them more. The combination is more closer than I lived in the States years ago.2017的一个亮点就是我家和汪家的第一次见面，确实场面一度很尴尬

可是后面的晚餐还是吃的很愉快的，像生命中大多数事情一样，最终幸福的结尾

A highlight of 2017 was when my family meet Wang's family for the first time, and this was one of the most nerve-racking moments. We had a dinner and a nice easy talk, like most things in life, it worked out.💜💜💜💜💜💜Friendship 💜💜💜💜💜💜2017年开始26岁的我一直知道友情对我的重要性

即使我回到上海还不满一年，我也建立了自己的朋友圈

我和这些可爱的姑娘们维持稳定的感情，我喜欢和她们在一起

毕竟幸福只有通过分享才能成真

I am in my late 20s now and friendship always means everything to me. Even I back to Shanghai less than a year, I have found my circle. I have good relationship with these lovely people and I would do anything for them. Happiness were only real when shared.💜💜💜💜💜💜relationship💜💜💜💜💜💜YT 是我选定的未来老公，这一年无微不至的照顾我

我们在上海的小公寓虽然没有纽约的大但是比纽约的那个温馨漂亮

我非常开心可以和他还有我家小短腿住在一起

今年是我和男票的三周年，这对我来说很重要，因为这已经是我坚持时间最长的一段感情，而且我确定还会继续坚持下去，因为我会继续努力使得它变为现实

我们甚至打算了明年春天订婚

如果你认识我你将会吃惊这个决定并懂得这对我来说是很大的一个进步

因为以前的我一直站在人其实可以没有婚姻也过得更好那个梯队！YT is the love of my life, my chosen husband, is still with me. This year we rent a beautiful apartment in Shanghai , not as big as the old one in New York but more cozy and beautiful than the last one. I am so happy to be living here with my man and our darling Erbao. Yt and I made it to our three year anniversary this year and it was a huge deal for me. Because it officially marked my longest relationship ever. And I know we're gonna last because I'll do anything in my power to make this work. We even planned get engaged next May. If you ever know me, you will be surprised and know it's a huge step for me. As I always had the fear of marriage.💜💜💜💜💜💜work💜💜💜💜💜💜2017年我终于找到了自己理想的职业道路并为之奋斗努力，我喜欢和朋友们一起工作的状态

而且非常幸运的是两任公司我都遇到了很好的领导和伙伴们，也得到了很好的建议和开导

这些人再在2017年对我的鼓励和影响是不可估计的

🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️但是随着我不断地挑战新的时期，我也遇到了一些挫折

在这些挫折面前我觉得很疲倦不知所措，更惨的是产生一种自我厌恶的情绪，自己觉得自己可能不会再好了

This year I I finally found my career interests and did the best effort to pursue it; I love the fact that I collaborate with my friends and I am so lucky to have my whole team working with me. I really got some good advice from some leaders and the colleague are as sweet as you can imagine.But as I keep challenge the new things, I actually had a few meltdowns this year where I felt shattered and burnout to a point where I felt so much self-loathing.这一年我拾起了阅读的习惯，我一直坚信开卷有益这句话

当然朋友对我的帮助也是不可估量的，因为别人的信任可言给你想象不到的力量

我特别想感谢这些在成长道路上帮助我的朋友们

I began to read again as I always believed that you can always find answers through books. And also friends helped me a lot, because It's very nice to have other people that believe in you more than yourself. I wanna thanks you guys from the bottom of my heart.🎉🎉🎉🎉💛🎉🎉🎉🎉生命中的每一年都和以往不同，每年你都有新的目标，新的努力和新的困难

旧的和新的不同，你的和别人的也不同

所以如果仅仅把现在的自己和过去的自己或者其他人作比较未免有些不公平

我总是希望自己是一个开心的，充满活力的人因为我知道自己每年的努力，希望每年的自己都有所进步

我希望新的一年自己可以更加勤奋，可以对自己选择的道路感到安心

这可能是每个人都想要的，那个对自己的承诺，希望自己可以自由的选择生活并不被外界的评判所干扰

做一个真实的自己

Every year is completely different than the last, and I feel like you always have different milestones and different struggles and I feel like that's how life levels up. So I don't thinks it's fair to compare your past self to the present or other. I always want to be happy and full of energy because I know that I'm trying my best and every year I want to just get progressively better. I want to be more diligent, I want to feel more safe and comfortable and free to be myself wherever I go. I feel like that's all what we want in life,the permission to feel you authentic self without the fear of judgement and I know I will get there one day.2️⃣0️⃣1️⃣8️⃣请相信这一天的到来！谢谢看完这篇写在隆冬黑夜的吐槽！最好，新年快乐啊！2018！I know you will get there if you struggle with that. And thanks for reading this long bullshit that I wrote in a cold night. Happy new year 2018!